my lyfe anecdote

2010-01-01T20:41:00.002+08:00

its a new year,
a new start.
a fresh start.
im thankfull that im given tis oppurtunity to see 2010.
alhamdulilah.
wad can i say..
i aint gt no new year resolution.
i dun keep dem nor rmbr them halfway thru jan.
lols
i hope to be a better person,
to avoid making stupid mistakes,
to learn to respect
and learn to cherish.
and definitely do my obligation to god.
insyaallah.
:))

2009-12-23T23:09:00.002+08:00

i had a BLAST i tell u.
finally, i went out!
its hols sey and yet its my first tyme outs!
aniwaes...
i camwhore and let lose to the max today.
evenings @esplanade is a breeze.
very very very niceeee..
i den slept in the bus like a baby...
tiredly satisfied.
;0

2009-12-14T22:33:00.004+08:00

now tht im free;
i NEED to get out more often,
see the world
spent money,
inhale life
embrace love
kick sorrows/anger
have GREAT memories.
you only turn 21 once!
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im fuming mad.
best part is i Dunno why.
just happen.
one minute im happy happy another minute, im banging my fist on the door.
its crazy i tell u.
and i dunno y.
it sux to nt know why.
:(
im so mad, tears fallin.
why?
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finally hols is here.

3 weeks.
i realli gt to buck up and do well.
enuf is enuf.
i gotta keep her at bay.
she's making me lazy!
urgh.
i tink ppl hate me.
guess what?
i hate them too.
smriks.
oh ya..
ppl hu talk abt other ppl are prolly lonely anyways
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A year has passed.
broken frenship.
fostered relationship.
oh ship ship ship..
where thou set sail??...
in the depths of my heart..
i shall not forsake thee.

2009-12-07T22:42:00.001+08:00

im having a terrible terrible headache.
praying it'll go away....

2009-12-03T22:46:00.003+08:00

this week is really rough on me.

am late for like always for the week.

gt sick midweek and had to see doc.

but u noe..

noting gonna stop me frm seeing twilight new moon when its release!

so i did wad i had to do and duh, during lunch, went to cp bought tix and came back to sch for presentation.

after sch, off to movie!!

haha..

semangat kn.

anyways, its a nice show.

i wld watch again but on dvd tho.

oh wellss..

and oh oh oh..

tho vampires are so seductively hot,

i gotta go with wolfs.

so much animal in a man.

now that's HOT stuff i tell u!!

and i so think taylor lautner is gorgeous.

tt face..oooh tt face..so beautiful.

haha..

supid bella. how could she say no to such a face.

mmmm..

he shld come singapore, confirm many girls will die to be in his arms.

those big nice hard arms.

yelps!!...

just look at tt face.

how can one say no??

siow-ness

to think he's 17.

oh boy..

i say are you gonna be my boi??.

hahahhahhahhahah...

i soooo want u to be my dreamcatcher. lolx

2009-11-30T23:03:00.002+08:00

we used to be frens. good frens, even best frens.
we vowed to be there for each other always.
tho, at last we lost touch with each other,
knowing you're nt ok makes me feel realli bad.
maybe if maybe, we didnt lost touch. den maybe i would be able to ease the pain away or be there for all the laughters etc.
even now, saying smtg; well aniting seems inappropriate suddenly.
maybe im thinking too much.
but its true aint it.
takes a lifetime to know a person.
yet a minute to forget one.
we let distance, schools, peers etc takes our frenship away.
why did i allow this?
i was so eager to make new ones till i forgot old ones.
forgot those that were dere.
how easily i give them up for new ones.
no doubt, thankfully im still in touch with them.
tho things are never the same.
we dun quite share the same thoughts, nor are we even the same.
i find myself trying to talk, say hie etc but i cant reali get my words across.
they have their own life, own frens.
like i aint fittin.
neither there nor here.
haish.

maybe its best to let the past be.
but how can i when at times i see a bleak future.
so wad do i do nw?
i live in the moment.
what happens has happened.
what haven happen is not for my prediction.
so future, surprise me(in a gd way).
and oh..
let frienship strengthen through time.
for i aint want a lonely wedding.

2009-11-27T22:54:00.000+08:00

slmat hari raya haj to all!!
:)
:)
:)

2009-11-17T23:05:00.002+08:00

i wanna be young again!!
wanna be young again!!
wanna be young again!!
i wanna be young again!!
haha..wth gtu kn.

~im shag these days. go figure..

2009-11-11T13:21:00.005+08:00

here i am supposidly to be studying molecular
but u can see im nt tt into it.
left 1 more chapter den insya allah blh la buat.
this week started lazily and damn i get lazier each day.
its mid week now.
2 more days.
den weekends!
:)
u noe, last year at tis time, i was soo doing smtg else.
smtg more major.
cant believe its been a year.
huahuaha..
good luck oOOooo.
* no regrets*
and yes, i wan get married. hu doesnt???

2009-11-05T12:46:00.002+08:00

UT's have started.

and i lost track of time.

huahuahuahua...

on the flipside,

euu and me getting better and better.

me suka :)

hahahaa...

everyday is a HAPPY day if start right.

2009-10-23T12:44:00.000+08:00

BOOOOOOOO YAHHHH

haha...cookie monster decided to eat sheep. :(

hehe...so cute ryte...

SAY BYE BYE! MUACKS

2009-10-15T20:13:00.002+08:00

happy birthday to me!!!
happy birthday to me!!!
happy birthday to me!!!
happy birthday to me!!!
happy birthday to me!!!
& yes, its my party and i cry if i want to, cry if i want to, u wld cry too if it happen to you...
i did exactly that today.
in class somemore.
wasnt expecting anyting from the class since its been like what, urmmm close to 2 weeks of knowing each other!!???..
but i got a cute bday ppt shown in class projector and of course whats a bday without candles and cakes.
:P
and its fruit cakes.
like BEST kay!!.
hahah..
and oh..did i mention i was too stump for words that i just stood dere numb and cried tears of surprise.
haha..
my wish was so funni given that i was still numbly surprise and din know what to wish for??..
ahhaaa..
but alls good.
it was sweet can.
oh, had party crashers too.
tharini and jiajia came over while my class was bringing the cake in while singing the song.
they scream "HAPPY BIRTHDAY' and then they ran off.
cute ryte.
hehe..
physics faci was dere too tho it was biology today. hurhur.
its bittersweet u noe.
cos on one side, i miss my old class, one the other new class was being uber sweet.
:)
chiaos!!
gonna go steam-boating larh!

2009-10-14T09:10:00.002+08:00

today i woke up feeling so lousy.
i slept lousy.
before i slept, i had a panic attack.
i grew paranoid.
gt angry.
frustrated.
pissed.
:(
so i cried.
sigh.
today..i feel partly lost.
i know why.
but i dunno if its possible today.
i wan be alone till im dere wit u.

2009-10-09T20:14:00.001+08:00

1 DOWN

9 MORE TO GO!

*breathe easy, it'll be over soon enuf*

2009-09-30T19:02:00.004+08:00

sometimes i noe when ppl lie to my face,
its just so obvious.
with all the corny lines and acts.
sigh.
guilty. guilty.
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oh..
wad are friends?
truly, i feel they are the wind.
they come and they go.
u cant make them stay.
u cant force them too.
even if they did, its cos they had no choice not cos they wan be with u.
artificial friends.
yeps thats what they are.
not all.
just some few.
people like su, sheils, fir, vC, zaki, and the lists continues...
these ppl are ppl that have made an impact in my life be it gd or bad.
oh wells..
u cant have all ryte.
ppl come ppl go.
thts just how things wrks.
they say; *boys come and go BUT frens remain forever*
i think its bullshit.
cos both also come and gone.
only those that remain are those that have put in effort to making it work and last long.
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2009-09-21T13:07:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA.
MAAF ZAHIR BATIN TO ALL OUT THERE.
SORRY IF GOT MISTAKES ETC DONE.
HAVE FUN!!
CHEERS (:
(on-going raya outings)

2009-09-14T23:54:00.002+08:00

hello earthlings!!!
3 weeks pass..
ramadhn comin to an end in a weeks time.
did terawih like thrice! (too lil)
im done with work. ( kinda miss it)
i made new frens of all age. (yes i did)
im gettin a lil forgetful. (ask hazwan, he noes)
i haben talk to anione from e37d. (mayb onli raina jer)
gotten my first duit raya (yes, frm abg nirwan)
packed shit loads of men's wear (include inners too)
learn tagalog frm cindy; sily=pnis. gunting=scissors (she's shitsload of fun and vulgar)
a cute tall malay guy tried on a shirt in fitting room and den came out with his singlet. paid his shirt and in front of me, he wore it after ripping the tag off. (hot sey) :)
gonna miss chiu yuen, hazwan and more...( mish y'all)
feels like 3 weeks with them is more rewarding than 4 months with class.
watching mtv made at midnight. (love tt show)
heard the song down from jay sean. (he's not white)
waiting for smtg
ok la..done

2009-09-03T00:49:00.002+08:00

i CRIED.
yes i did.
nt my proudest moment.
but i cant control it in.
shaken up.
too shaken up.
i wish i had guts so i can stand up to u.
i felt real stupid.
i dun like this feelings
i gave it my all,
each morning i wake up and drag myself to face another day.
i dun wan do this ani more.
i wan throw the towel in.
if you hadnt stop me just now, i wld have left.
i had enuf.
lets see how things goes.
anymore hiccups, i'm goin off.
no more no more.

2009-08-28T21:34:00.004+08:00

its my OFF day.
like finally.
phew.
tired u noe.
first tyme fasting and wrking.
haha..
quite cool actually.
had buka wit family for the first tyme cos been wrking.
first terawih as well.
felt good!! :)
next off is in a week tyme.
lamer per.
tsk.
oh wells..
ibadah kerje kn.
everythings been well, alhamdulilah.
so no rants. :P
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happi 21st bday to my bestie since like zaman muda2 dulu.
hahahaaaa.
Ms Shaheen got older today;28aug.
so hapi birthday and happi always and be bless by Allah swt. Amin.

2009-08-19T21:08:00.002+08:00

in the midst of studying,

i am able to slot in a post.

mmm wad does tt show of me??

well, its call time off.

been studying like since i woke up at 5.

wells...

i dun udts smtg.

y some people must be so lokek in their knowledge.

come on man.

tsk

so disgusting la such org.

dun like!!

dun like!!

im so tired.

yes.

TIRED.

i miss myself.

:(

im nt making sense am i?

well, im nt suppose to la duh.

2009-08-12T09:23:00.001+08:00

OH i know I know
its beeen FARR too long since i last updated.
well..lets start first
HAPPI birthDay SG!!
haha..im one of those patriotic for tt moment tht gt up and took the pledge at 8.22pm on 9/8/09
i kno i know its like so cliche.
but it still felt really good u noe.
i've never said it with so much proudness and eagerness before.
kinda miss it actualli now tt its gone.
tu la, dulu zaman skola tak nk ckp.
lol.
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so yesterday watch anu.
kinda knew sara gonna menang tho i so prefer kunjung.
sara sounds soo much like ziana zain with all the screams.
u ought to listen to her without looking at her.
jus hear, dun see.
u'll get wad i mean abt her voice resemblence.
ok, now seriously
mcm mane org melayu kita nk maju???
the comments they sent in during the show shows very much how immature they are.
its a TALENT competiotion.
so wads with the "vote for pure singaporean"
so bias and discrinimating tau.
quite memalukn to me.
tsk tsk..
haish
and yet they complain knape we malayu sering dipulaukn.
simply cause, we dun measure up to others.
we are smart but we dun like competition.
senang terpengaruh.
sayang sekali.
hopefully, someday we would be more rational in our thoughts.
lau kita tak harumkn name melayu, sape lagi kn.
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oh oh
im sounding so naggy these days.
blame it on hormones and age.
hormones and age
i'm mature sey, gone were those childish days
i miss them
growing up is hard.
decisons made each day.
thnk god for young frens; fyfie, fara,raina,thara etc
at least with them, i feel 17 again.
haha..
like tt show zac efron 17 again jer.
ok la..
i skip sch today, last lesson.
so ya watever
gonna out wit raina to go get me some job during the hols.
hols hols hols..
ure coming and im coming to get ya!!!
ok bye! :)

2009-08-05T10:54:00.003+08:00

just wen u tot u knew it all,
someone comes and tell u no.
invisible slap to the face.
ouch.
im awaken now.
very much awaken
HURT but awaken
thnks alot kie.
gd thing you're so far away.
at least it spares me from facing you.
tt wld be worst.

2009-08-04T12:55:00.003+08:00

i have mixed emotions now
&
it scares me.
i dun wan do smtg i wld regret.
it could simply be my hormones.
or maybe its the truth i've always overlook.
now wad??
im nt up for this
wads the reaction am i suppose to give?
i think it all started wen i found out smtg i prolly shouldnt
cos now...
im wandering what i would have done if the reality isnt as such.
but i cant.
it so wrong
it may nt even be worth it.
but
damn...
confuse yeaps..
i just need tyme to think it thru.
i dun wan make stupid mistakes tht i'll regret.
and i know deep down,
ure never a mistake to begin with.
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SERIOUSLY!
WHO THE HELL DO U THINK U ARE TO PASS COMMENTS ABT MY WORK ETHICS?
FOR HEAVEN SAKE, I DID ALOT AND I KNOW I DID ALOT.
THERE AINT NO NEED FOR YOU TO TELL ME WAD I DID OR DIDNT.
MY CONSCIOUS AINT THE ONE TTS BUGGED.
ITS YOURS.
TTS Y U GET SO HAPPY OVER SMTG SO MENIAL.
ITS NOT EVEN TRUE.
SERIOUSLY GROW UP.
people just gets worse and worse.
thinking they know everything.
*rolls eyes in disgust*

2009-08-02T22:51:00.006+08:00

last post was abt BOtanic gardens..

i last went dere was oohhh sooo super many donkey years ago

so last sat, we finally had time and was initially heading out for PS.

we pass botanic gardens and we immediatly alight.

it was scorching hot mind u.

yet it was so worthwhile.

i saw many many couples took weeding pics there.

so pretty.

isit expensive to take dere?

hmmmm

aniwaes..

love the swan lake..

seeee..

we saw a swan.

pretty right??

it was really vast in space and so nice.

tho it was so hot,

the trees provided shades.

i LOVE it..

seee happi face!!

hheeee..shld go dere more..

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i went to SMU flea market.

it was hmmm okie2 larhs.

i gt myself this beautiful charmbracelet.

it has a heart shape locket in the middle.

it soo pretty larhs..

can be made into a heirloom.

hhhaaaaa... mcm paham jer aku.

aniwaes aft tt, decided to take a walk to ct hall..

otw, we pass the National Museum and we sorta went inside.

supposidly must pay for admission.

but being a student at my sch, its free babey!!

haaaa...save 10 bucks.

well..there was 5 main galleries.

history, fashion,movies,photographs and cookery.

yeps yeps.

i enjoyed the fashion and movies most.

cos there were headphones for u to listen to the songs from the past.

in the fashion gallery,

we sat at this half circle seats, so retro sey.

and listen to ols songs.

it was so nice u noe. haha..

we kinda had our moment wher we dance the a go go and cha cha..lol

there was no one so yeah.

lol.

den the movie was this 3 big screens where they aired snippets of malay movies.

its like watching a movie in the past.

there were seats and all..

popcorn missing.

den we sat down and choose songs from the movies on the gramaphone!!!

sooo coool..

it was so fun.

seriously..

the rest was cool too but those two are my favs!

OVERALL very nice. its a MUST go i tell u

seriously i enjoyed it alot.

seee...

muka berseri-seri happi...

nostalgic tooo..

heeee...

u knoe, in the museum, TWICE i was asked which country i'm from.

wat sey do i look like??

afterwhich we mkn at magic wok cthall.

good food. real good.

tom yam soup and thai fried blacan rice.

i love.

happi belly!!!...

walked back to dhoby gaut,

had a macd milkshake and off to home..

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sleepy sleepy..

nights babey... :P

2009-07-28T14:43:00.000+08:00

BOTANIC GARDEN
ROX!!
ME LURVE LURVE...
:)

2009-07-24T21:08:00.003+08:00

weirdly enuf..
while i was login in to this site
i started singing a familiar tune
an old tune
it goes like this
You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything
yeps u saw ryte.
tts my everything 98 degrees.
prettey old stuff ey..
oh wells, u noe old songs are better.
i so prefer it more.
maybe tts y im like so OLd.. hahaha
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okies... this week is a a turmoil of emotions for me
im like sad happi bored, stress, frustrated
every emotion is felt.
kinda glad that the weekends are coming up..
4 more weeks to sch
endure endure
haish..
i wish life would go back to time when it is was so much easier.
i think im easily tired cos duh lack of sleep and cos im getting older.
older cos mentally more draining.
it aint the body thats tires, its my mind
so much responsibilities and the future.
the future is like this black hole
a hole i dunno if good or bad.
mmmm...
i need to chill and sleep.
chop chops..
swallow tt yellow pill and off me goooo
nighty nights peps
zzzzz..slumber land calling

2009-07-20T19:24:00.008+08:00

on saturday...
had my project meeting.
it was so nonsense cos first the place was so not right.
it was hot
i was bumm.
it was boring too
some discussion it turn out.
bleargh..
afterwards, things gt better,
DUH i left the meeting and chiao larh
there wasnt aniting anyways.
smua tgk facebook.
tu pon blh buat kat rumah kn.
takya dtg jauh2 stakat nk facebook la.
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moving on...
i went mkn thosai at yishun la dey!!
hhhaaaaaaa

tht is teh chino ice.
very nice u noe
so light in the taste
love love

tt is thosai. 3 sets for 2 person eat.
tamak(greedy) per..
lol
2 plain, 2 egg, 1 masala.
weee wooooo..
so nice sia..
some more aft solat maghrib mkn..
nikmat nye..
mcm baru buka oi..
hhhaaaaa...
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now today...20/07/09
lets start with
HAppi Bday FaraBOOO
booOOO...
lol
stay hapi and tak senonoh slalu ya.. :)
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so i went to sch so unhappi lar..
boring bingit tak suka
ish.
sch kinda sux today.
i realise there's so many lies being told.
seriously isit neccessary??
come on.
be a man and own up if u are just plain pemls.
dun kasi excuses.
kn da malu org tau u lied.
kesian org mcm gni.
oh well..

i feel like i did it alll.
im not bitter tht i did it allll.
ok fine, it sux.
argh fusch.
moving on.
bleargh.
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i had dinner with stitch!!!
we ate at northpoint bbq chicken..
weirdly i took fish and chips instead. hahaha
BIG portion ryte

look look..
tts burger for you!!
hah mkn kau! :)

all these plus 4 drinks since per cup get another free flow...
alll foooorrrrr
$15.80 nett.
cheap kn.
$7.90 each plus gst svc charge etc lar.
big portions sey..
so full man..
i ended up eating the fish meat onli.
cMi la...
kenyang kie...
hehehehe...
sux for u two losers who refuse to accommodate us.
padan muka
tak bleh mkn ngan kita
tak blh amik face mask from aku
hurhur..
i hope u read.
WE SOO OVER YOUU TWO!!
SERIOUSLY

next up...
i need to go watch HARRY potter!!...
tuddles.

2009-07-14T19:34:00.002+08:00

you know, i wouldnt consider myself as being unresonable.
tho at times i am guilty at that.
still thts beside the point.
now, i'M realli pissed
how could u give me a C wen u didnt even allow us to finish?
worst u had to cut our each and every sentence and tried to ridicule us.
what is wrong with u??
like hello.
otak mane oiii!!
seriously, its just plain rude to cut someone when they are talking, worst still is when u ended it even before they could finish it up.
i realli dun deserve this.
we tried, we put in effort.
if u cant see den jolly well its yr lost.
if u think that being nice to certain ppl and practising favouritism,
you could get more votes, well think again aites.
nothing lasts forever.
but one thing for sure,
damn aku enggak suka same lo!
nasib nasib
tsk tsk
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on a lighter side, schools ending is like less than a month.
after tt hols den sem 2
its realli fast.
time just whizzes by and tup tup its a brand new beginning.
my class may not be the most outgoing or out there class,
but i still enjoyed every minute with them.
sure i had my issues with some,
tt is jus normal ryte, human ma.
but overall, my class is realli nice.
how often do u get classmates that wants to circulate their notes and pass around for the classmates to see and KEEP??
how often do u get unselfish mates??
not very often i must say.
and tts y i feel this way, they make the class a great class in a unique way.
we are united despite having our own little clans.
SO
lets just enjoy E37D as i may never get another quite like this.
who knows what the future holds eeehh....
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i wish time would be on my side whenever _____________
i never expected this time to pass by so quickly.
so many emotions felt and tho im still getting used to it,
its a whole lot more satisfying.
time lag with ____ is what i wish to have.
:)

2009-07-12T00:20:00.001+08:00

it rained alot today...
wonder how dia is
pity pity we miss the fireworks eh..
hmmm..
beyonce-flaws and all.
love tt song.
:)

2009-07-09T21:20:00.002+08:00

*when i need you

i just close my eyes and i found you.....*

no matter what happens,

you gotta know that its not what i asked for.

im so torned.

i need to pen this somewhere else.

its not for the public to see.

2009-07-07T09:55:00.003+08:00

friday night...
ramp thru the crowds to get in the bus...
push people thru to get seats.
its vicious i tell you.
people just keep pushing and pushing and everyone one wants to go home.
well almost everyone but me.
i wan dinner
at madjack.
yes tts the place.
MADJACK.
dropped off at bt timah.
saw the place and damn it was full house.
they offered us outdoor seating
and
i was like
"mmmm No."
so we shared table with this fella who ate alone yet hogged 6 seater table.
haiyo.
tak senonoh kn org2 sekarang.
so we ordered and i had chicken with black pepper sauce, peach salad and fries.
all for 7.90.
i tot thats a normal good price.
he gt baked smtg.
it was so big and cheesy till each mouthful was accompanied by strings of cheese.
hahaaaa...
mine was big portions and we both felt sooo uber full after food.
it was a trip tt we were happy to have gone.
sat there for some time
talk and talk, smile, jokes,
crappy and smiles.
im happy.
:)
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sat sun was cleaning frenzy for me.
all i did was clean clean clean.
i felt oh so dirty and dusty afterwards.
i bath and scrub myself clean.
felt better.
my bed oh my bed.
it so pretty u noe.
i changed the sheets to white
and its so clean
mcm ala ala hotel gtu..
hahaa..wee weet hotel per
so i slept like a baby.
woke up on monday with aches.
haha...
who tot cleaning home would give me aches.
so i skipped sch
besides it was YOUTH day.
so i assume that smlm takde sch.
wahhaaaaaa...
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i need hols and a daily dosage of tum.

2009-07-02T18:30:00.000+08:00

BACK ACHES KILLING ME...

2009-06-24T10:12:00.001+08:00

i had all dese yesterday at delifrance,

all for 7.90.

good ryte?

hahahaaaa...

im down..

yea..

2009-06-22T12:31:00.009+08:00

wedding tyme!!

those pics were on saturday.

tts the girl side.

her deco was like woahh!

nice le.

below is boy side on sunday.

tts my cousin larh.

his deco was nice too.

but i prefer hers :)

okie...

tts alll..

*smiling*

2009-06-16T09:13:00.003+08:00

i watch HANNAH MONTANA muuuvie!!
hahaa...umur brape siak aku.
ish ish..
laaa ai watch wit nieces so wad u expect ryte
aniwaes, i like the show.
best tau.

today, 3 ppl wore pink
me, farah, sylvia
hahaaaa...
mcm da pakat gtu..
pink day!
im sleepy..
*hibernate*

2009-06-10T22:55:00.002+08:00

WEST-EAST-WEST
tts exactly how i travelled today.
lol.
it was fun tho the scorching sun was kinda hmmm..
had dinner at arnolds city plaza.
i loike..
haha...
den SWIMMING @ CSC.
so fun.
it was so cool.
just gt home actualli..
pretty tired..
*yawns*
nites kie

2009-06-09T16:24:00.004+08:00

i officially dun like to lap ceiling..
sakit tau tengkok and pinggang ku..
and this has gt nothing to do with age!!
on the brighter side,
tmr is swimming tyme!!!
yey yey yey..
cant wait
padahal tak erti nk swim..
shhh..

u noe, i jus realise puasa da nk dekat..
like 2 months away jer..
cepat kn..
alhamdulilah, i dun have any hutang to bayar balik.
pada sesiape yg ader hutang puasa, bayar la yer..
jgn tunggu lama lama..
susa nanti..
hahaa..bebual mcm paham sey aku..
IM SERIOUS kay
okie da,
im capek.
ok daaaa...

2009-06-08T12:13:00.003+08:00

at times like this...

i only need one...

you alone will do..

i gotta breathe slOw..

steady girl, steady

2009-06-05T22:16:00.004+08:00

last entry was like on monday.
now its friday.
time truly has passed by quick eh..
but somehow, it feels so slow for me.
my week has been fine,some days better thn the others..

tuesday i want back to sch for some stuffs.
it was easy, it was fun and it was shorts.
hahs.

wed was best.
left hm at 9am to go ECp!!
haha was lost since i west side go east.
kental sey wen its still singapore.
tsk.

ooo wells, reach den did wad i wanted to do oh so badly,
CYCLING.
rented a bicycle for 3 hrs and paid $6.
so do the math. its gd money for gd FUN.

cycled from mac till bedok jetty.
as on tt day, the weather started off as wet and even in ECP, it was still cloudy but no rain.
so the cycling made me so happy.

i could feel the wind as i zoom pass the slopes and all.
it was blissful and i wish i cld capture tt moment.
at bedok jetty, we chilled for a while.
took in the scenary and cool wind.

i could barely open my eyes cos it was so windy
but i wouldnt trade aniting to see the wind.
feeling it brush against my skin and hair made it so worthwhile travelling tt far.

den headed back to mac dere,
otw, stopped and had lunch..
haha...

bawa bekal oi.
nasi dgn sambal goreng and serunding and kari daging and nuggets.
lol.
minum bottle 100+ and bahagianya diri ini.

headed back to shack to return the bicycles cos times up.

den wen to suntec, caught the 2.50pm show
NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM 2.
I SOOO LOVE THE SHOW.
MUST WATCH.

haha..wen arcade, had dinner den home i went.
i slept soundly, gosh. :)

thurs did ntg much but clean my home. heee
i do enjoy cleanin home u noe..

today was realii boring.

tmr is a date wit coussie.
but like not confirm so i also dunno if still gt date or nt tmr..
hmmmm...
(sepanjang jln kenangan kita selalu berganding tangan,
sepanjang jln kenangan kau peluk diriku mesra,
hujan yg rintik2 di awal bulan itu,
menambah nikmatnya mlm syahdu)-this song kept playing while i was in ECp. (;

2009-06-01T09:56:00.002+08:00

what in the world am i doin up so early despite having my first taste at hols??
da knape sey aku bangun pagi2..
hmmm..
and im bored u noe, bosan..
i gotta fill my days up wit smtg or somebody..
any takers??
hahaaaa...
tt day, met my cute fren la...
lama no meet..
cracked jokes like mad. everyone we dunnoe also we wave bye to at void deck, we smile, we kacau..
this all thnks to his madness and overfriendly-ness..
so fun..must do again aites!!!
im gonna outs in a few hrs..
hmmm...i need mrbean ice cream..
and belacan rice..
aku bosan!!!!

2009-05-29T11:00:00.002+08:00

1. Besides lips, where is your favourite spot to get a kiss?
forehead

2. How do you feel when you wake up this morning?
shitt!! school!!..damn

3. Who was the last person i took pictures with?
liabe

4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
yes definitely. like duuuh!!!

5. Would you ever donate blood?
i tried sey but they measure and say my veins too small and if i go ahead, i'll feel pain. hermm

6. Have you ever had a bestfriend who was the opposite sex?
yesh yesh, i still do aites.

7. Do you want someone dead?
maybe, i dunnooo..lemme think

8. What does the last message say?
floorball sent a mail say NO slippers allowed in campus!

9. What are you thinking right now?
ape merepek, otak tgh blank beb

10. Do you wish someone is with you right now?
yesh yesh yesh

11. What time you went to bed last night?
11pm-12am

12. Where did you buy your T-Shirt that you're wearing now?
im wearing a DRESS oi!....at bugis

13. Is someone in your mind?
yes (:

14. Who was the last person who texted you?
nandez

15. 10 people tagged in this quiz.
1. shaheen
2. fara
3. fyfie
4.raihana
5. khairi
6.nouru
7. kaya
8. cheryl
9.dil
10.sahida

16. Who is 2 having relationship with?
some mat. lolx

17. Is 3 male or female?
female(boobday girl today)

18. If 7 & 10 get together, would it be good thing?
hahhaaaa!!...10 would be flatten sey..(winks)

19. What is 1 studying about?
education in NIE

20. When was the last time you had a chat with 5?
yesterday, same group dey

21. Is 4 single?
according to her, yeppa

22. Say something about 2?
dia cute, merepek, a bit shameless...lain check her blog!

23. What do you think about 3 & 6 being together?
chances are low. unless both gt same interest in Japan. 6 loves and is part japanese

24. Describe 9.
dil. love d smile. real nice fella. me loike alot. gd fwen. kish kish!!

25. What will you do if 6 & 7 fight?
watch and see. confirm funni sia!

26. Do you like 8?
yes, a gd fren from MI, nice tall girl.

hahahaaa...tts it..:)

2009-05-25T11:02:00.008+08:00

hhiheeee!!!

okies so many things did larh.

sunday was nothing, so scratch that!!

sat sat sat, was fun!!

i want out. go bugis

den bought a dress. me loike!

den had gd food.

oh tummy full and happi.

i had laksa mee sliced fish soup.

dia had mushroom chicken dry noodle.

its gd food at cheap price.

im a happi person..

see seee..

see happi full me!!

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friday, we celebrted dhinesh's bday!

we had 2 cakes-black forest.

it was a total fun event.

gerek siot!!!

best gler.

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after school, i wanted breeks so craving for it.

as we sat down in CP breeks, we saw many many people rushing down the escalator..

so in the end, no breeks for me :(

cos the crystal jade went up in smoke!

damn.

very leceh le.

cos so many ppl rushing, den i also no space to move.

ish.

gt firefighter le.

quite cool also.

never wld i imagine i will be half trap in a shoppin centre due to fire.

tsk tsk..

so in the end, went BPP and had swensens instead.

i had crayfish pasta, coit tower, dia had mac n cheese baked pasta, tomato soup etc...

hahahaaa...im in love with food.

da mcm food entry sia..

hahahaaa...

im a happi person!!

:) maceh yaaa

2009-05-24T21:38:00.002+08:00

i wan update!!
with pictures and all...
but no tyme!! argggggh
(soon will come my dear wher i shall update thy)

2009-05-20T21:54:00.005+08:00

i had my first UT today.
i tot 45mins would be bloody long but i was ooohh so wronged!
45mins flew damn fast larhs.
haiyo.
thank god i did all qn
but whether i did all qns correctly is another matter.
heee..
after tt rushed to ct hall and go mkn!
i finally had my thai belacan fried rice.
so nice and freaking spicy since i minta cilipadi tabur atas.
darn shiok la.
drank bandung.
habis, tts it, balik perut bahagia.
terus tdo dlm bus.
ish bad habit sey gurl
haaaaa...
today i ranted on someone.
i just couldnt kept it any longer.
leceh eh.
bilang sala, tak bilang pon sala.
haiz..
ape nk jadi jadi la.
asalkn aku tau yg aku nie bukan penipu ataupon fake eh.
tolong sikit.
im as real as u get.
dun like, den get lost.
dun need u.
ppl say i am mean.
i say they are right.
i am mean.
wad for so angelic den suffer?
correct?
so be mean and get what u wan
but still be mean to only the ppl tt deserve
and if only cant take it animore.
den be mean.
i support!!
mcm setan sak aku.
aiyoyo..
cukup ckup..
i gtg istighfar. :)
da da da da da

2009-05-18T22:13:00.003+08:00

y must i keep mum wen i feel like i am being exploited?
y must i keep mum wen i clearly am unhapi?
y must i keep mum wen u cant do the same?
u noe, its so stupid that i always have to keep mum despite me totally hating being in tt situation.
u are such an arse.
u onli think abt yrself.
tt brings u nowhere.
darn.
i just so sick of this.
pls change or i'll turn nasty.

2009-05-18T08:43:00.006+08:00

im sleepy u noe despite having sooo much of sleep during the weekends.
hmmmm...
on sat, i wen to mi carnival.
it was not fun,
no no.
2006 was oh sooo much better.
they had haunted house dere but this one doesnt.
and stuffs were not tt cheap.
loads of food thoo..
i had smores.
my very first smores.
it was crackers tt is coated with choc syrup and has marshmellow in between.
den its put in oven to be heated.

tts the smores, $2. heee
i like.
oh i buy float too. as in root beer float with peppermint ice cream. yummi

haaaa..tts all
oohh on friday, i found a webby tt edit pics.
i did it and its sooo nice..
lawaaa...i suka.
heeee...den i printed it on sat.
so tt roxs.
ok la...
i sleepi uh..besides im in sch!
study gurl study!
ps: im so tempted to talk back and talk! sharks

2009-05-11T09:56:00.009+08:00

i went out yesterday..
took loads of pic but those aint for yr eyes..
:P
so lets seee those few onli...

i got these at the atrium outside pS.

lol, he handed it out to me so i accept looor.

its niceee. i like..

aniwaes, it made me smile..

sooo sweet la tt sweet giver fella.

on my way back, he gave me another 3.

heheeeee...im in love with ricola sweetsss..

cos its fweeee!!!

then i had lunch at far east pastamania..

my second time at eating tt.

ordered smth else, upsize it even..

had penne alfredo and fren had beef lasange.

both i like..

but i onli took pic of mine cos i forgot about the lasange.

hehee..

so this is my penne alfredo upsize pasta

tts moi eating..hahaa...first bite..

after tt, more shopping..

i finally bought my butterfly necklace.

wait i upload.

i din take a pic of it.

but i love it.

its so worth it.

i spent alot at town itself.

evening went vivo after tt to do mom personalized charm bracelet.

ooohhh its so pretty..

it has 10charms; 6 is her name letters, 4 is charms.

i took heart, apple, starfish and totebag.

all siver diamond..

cost alot but i like it.

and best of all...mom love it..

so kudos to moi.

u noe, im gonna be broke if my expenses are like this..

ish...

but some things are just worth it!

heeeeee (:]

shaggggg...gonna falter in sch..

2009-05-08T22:50:00.007+08:00

this is how im feelin at the moment.
NO
ive been angry since sch ended.
series of bad bad bad judgements, time and evrything else.
im bloody tired somehow.
and worst is i rant out to my bro and whoever tht talks to me.
i noe its unfair for them but
i just cant control
i miss crying actualli.
at least tts less irritating.
but i cant cry, not yet aniwaes.
im just so angry and frustrated and im confused.
why oh why..
i feel so crap..
u noe i need u ryte?
u noe i love u ryte?
ive treated u so nicely..
so y did u do this??
oh why why must my dear
hp decide to bail on me..
damn u phone!
screw u once i can.
im officially INSANELY MAD
i do feel better now that ive let go.
haish..
siao bo.
u noe wads worst?
tmr, i wan go shoppin but no one is free.
i dun wan shop alone, im not in the mood for it.
i wan go cycling actualli.
i wan picnic by the park too..
beaches are nice..
i just wan you.
yes i do.
u noe, i am gonna block all those tht have virus in their msn
its effing irritating mind you!!
block block block u!!!!
ooh yes, i brutally said no to working at coffeebean holland V.
wad was i thinking..ish ish
okie im done..
toodles

2009-05-06T08:28:00.002+08:00

i have learn smtg new about hw to remove make up and thick layers of mascara effectively in a few mins.
i tried it yesterday after i put 5 layers of mascara. lol
den i panic on hw to remove.
well, u cld use baby oil.
cool huh..
maybe everyone already knows this trick.
oh wells, no one told me.
haha..
so yeps2 i like it..
face feels smooth after tt.
den i slept
huahahaaa..
i gotta get smtg tt ive been itching to get..
oh tt butterfly necklace.
its soooo pretty.
i love.
i shall buy u once i have approval..
keke
school been aites nways..
i was lazy yesterday tho.
super lazy.
haha..did ntg till last min.
lazy ass..
huahahahaha...
im takin my temp now;36.7
im saved. keke
i had smtg to blog abt actualli but i forgot.
nvm...later dens

2009-05-04T08:52:00.004+08:00

the weekend started out pretty slow..
tot of goin out to get that butterfly necklace..
didnt tho.
went to take my cert instead.
den rush home to watch my hindi. gosh
very long i miss hindi u noe.
i miss it.
it felt gd watching it.
:)
ntg much after tht...
sun, i got a call.
omg!!
ive just been invited to a pre engagement kinda thing and its a indian kind!!
ahhhh..dreams come true.
like hindi movies just smaller.
but still cool cos i gt to participate in a tradition of giving the couple sweets.
and i was fed a sweet too by her future mom in law.
lol.
weirdly cool huh??
they look oh so happy.
i could cry but narh..
maybe the real event, i might. hehe.
she's gonna leave me to go abroad and be a tai tai.
sobs sobs.
i dun have pics wit me,
it wld be nice to have it..
i'll ask frm her soooon..
kwang kwang..
eh, i fought with him.
not gd..
lasted till closed to 1am..
very sad...
:(
hey,ive a new love.
its peanut waffles.
i jus adore tt
and i had rose syrup drink and i realise how much i miss it. yumm
lychee sweet rawks too.
gosh, ive been eating too much junk food tt i forgot how gd other food taste like..
bad meee

2009-04-28T22:20:00.002+08:00

i cant believe im saying this but i miss working
esprit called me just now, asking me if i can wrk the nxt 2 weeks. darn.
sch gets in d way, haish.
i sooo wanted to say yes..
aniwaes, i have ntg to say oooh..
i'll update later or sooon

2009-04-24T15:47:00.002+08:00

):
today is considerably the worse day of the 5 day week.
firstly, i miss the bus i always take to sch.
darn.
den my eyes were red cos of some dust or smtg
lesson was interesting, i realli like it.
the not so fun part is that its very draining.
faci demanded alot.
i got dizzy spells nearing presentation time.
i present onli 1 slide, darn.
met my fren aft sch to find prezzie.
got into a heated argument and both gt pissed,
said things we shouldnt have
and now we live to regret.
miss the bus home.
had to wait darn long.
wen caltex, the fella flirted, gosh so not cool.
urghh.
finish up rJ; freaking hard.
messed up my activity, had to redo.
network lagging, crap.
found out i dint get invitation to ex classmate bday.
fine watever, dun need you b****.
do i sound bitter or what????
crap, im just tired.
tmr will be better day.
yea it would.

2009-04-18T23:20:00.003+08:00

kwang kwang..
never in my mind i wld expect SaS to have won d overall orientation and be d champions.
we beat SoH tt was 2yrs reigning champions. lolx.
rawk on SaS!!...
oh...i celebrated fren bday on thurs and fri and its d same person.
heheeee..
:) (:
im wrkin on d weekends..
sch monday..
tired ey..
mmmmm

2009-04-16T12:05:00.008+08:00

i notice smtg.
as humans, we cant nvr run frm making mistakes.
wad we can do is to soften d mistakes made and make things right if it was wronged.
but den, humans happen to mostly onli see d faults of others and nt themselves.
i too am included in it since i am onli but a human.
however, i must say tt up till now, ive no qualms abt bickering nor bitching if truly it is d truth.
i dun make others look bad jus so i look better.
if they are bad in my opinion den they are bad, face it.
abt my 2 previous entry.
finally she read it.
she asked su to read it too.
hence u see su reaction on my taggies.
su aint happi, and its evident frm d way she texted me.
sheila too text me.
wad made me relish my anger was simply her texting me saying ..."not nice..."
she text me saying tt my entry was not nice and she felt hurt.
seriously, i dunno in wad way was i not being nice?
i didnt use vulgar, neither was d post written in a angered manner.
those tt have read before and tag all say same thing,"dun be sad, cheer up.."
so u see, if others see tt entry as smtg heartfelt and saddening, how come u saw it differently??
i guess its just u. u were angry tt i put yr name up and let d world sees it.
now d world sees u in a different light, no longer d quiet sheila tt ppl noe.
its ok to be yrself. be it gd or bad, tt wld be yr life. no one can force any image upon u unless u yrself allow it.
so y get mad at me? when im d victim here??
and wen i told u i dun need u and u dun need me, i meant it cos its been tt way...
and u too replied saying nice knowing me, tc too.
its evident tt u cant wait to end the frenship officially.
if u truly cared abt this frenship and wanting things to be as per norm like how u always tell su,
den u wouldnt have just simply easily agreed to me wanting u off.
let me remind u..
ure letting go jus cos u met a guy(tt too thru me),
a guy tt u love and u rather lose a 3 yrs frenship den a 5mths+ relationship.
it shows alot abt wad type of a person u are.
d best part is, love may and may not last forever.
so hw could u be so sure tt ure gonna be wit him always?
hahahaha...
ppl can realli change.
u noe, su wans us 4 to met up and truly i dun mind.
cos my conscious is clean and ive no fear/anger/anxiety upon meeting u.
its jus a meet.
if we do meet up, talk things out, trash it if it helps u.
bring cheong if u need moral supprt.
im up for aniting.
go on girl...

2009-04-05T12:27:00.005+08:00

i dun have much updates.
just tt as of tmr, im a wrking adult.
muahahaha..but onli temporary.
keke..
im kinda scared as to hw it will be tmr..
hopefulli easy and do-able.
....
i love my religion.
i love family.
i love frens.
i love myself.
now, do i love u??
:)
(and to those tt have tag my box and let me noe yr tots, i realli appreciate it,its a blessing in disguise cos thru tis, i now know who realli cares and who pretends to care,u noe who u are..and peps, im nt sad. im oryte. =p)

2009-03-23T13:09:00.005+08:00

viewer discretion is advised.
im not gonnna put fake names to keep this post anonymous.
its jus not worth it.
its as real as its gonna get.
and if u, the intended person or anione close reads it den it fine by me.
i am washing out linens in public.
dirty or not, u judge.
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i notice u didnt talk nor look at me no more.
uve change and i noticed.
i waited for u to come forward and explain wads d hold back.
u dint, u nvr did.
i didnt wan bother myself as to y u did such,
i cant be bothered. if u dun bother to explain yrself den i too cant be bothered to ask u why.
3 years of frenship, i tot ive seen it all but u prove me wrong.
u were nvr a fren.
u were an acquaintance.
u nvr treated me like a fren,
u just agreed to wadever i say hoping tt i would jus go on like everythings fine.
do i detest u? no.
am i disappointed? yes,very.
i saw u d other day with him.
i knew instantly u were attch to him.
was i mad?no.
y shld i be?
i did like him den, emphasize on did and den.
so do i still like him? no.
it was just a lil crush.
if u had jus sat me down and explain things, i would hab been glad for u.
dere's ntg to fear for if uve done no wrong.
all is fair in love and war.
so wad if i knew him first? and he chooses u?
matters of the heart dun need an explanation.
it jus happen.
dere's so many other guys out dere and ive no probs abt gettin another.
so y d fear?
u coulnt even face me, damn it.
u acted like im invisible.
u dint smile, nor glance nor anitin.
no effort was made, ntg.
i waited patiently at suhaila party.
waiting to see yr next move.
u didnt look at me at all.
u know how i realise?
cos i was lookin at u.
i was hopin u would say hi and things goes normal.
it nvr did.
and wads wit telling suhaila abt yr fear of letting me know?
i seriously woulnt hav cared.
its a waste of breathe and time to scold u.
it aint worth it girl, it aint.
and u saying tt i shld have known wen u pass me my bday gift from him,
saying i was blur enuf to not have taken the hint.
darn it, i gave u d benefit of d doubt.
ask hanisa if u wan verify tt.
wad hurt more?
u being wit him or u think i would get angry or u saying im blur?
either way, wad im mad at, its like u knew me enuf to noe i might get mad but u dun noe me enuf to noe tt i see reasons too.
personally i think u feeling afraid was jus d beginning, thru time u've decided tt u dun need my frenship.
so dere, my frenship has expired to u.
and if u had cared enuf abt me, u woulnt hav entertain him in d first place or at least let me noe d truth.
i conclude u didnt care.
i dunno if u put him up to call me yesterday.
but everything went well, ive no grudges against him nor u.
still i dun wan interfere no more cos who are u ppl to me?
no more than strangers i say.
so dere, ive said my piece.
and yes, im disappointed in u, Sheila for treating me this way.
3 years of frenship, laughter, food, mugging,gossips,neoprints, boys etc meant ntg to u.
u dint bother to save this frenship.
u let go over a guy i barely care abt and u too dint care abt letting me go.
thanks alot i may add, for uve open up a new side to yr nature.
as for Ving Chiong, have him and be merry.
gd luck for future and great life.
a favor to ask: next time, if uve done smtg, face it.

2009-03-17T12:50:00.002+08:00

i took this test abt the real me.
lets review it together aites..

Here is the analysis:

You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.
You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking

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this is wad i think of me...

Your view on yourself:You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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personality...

Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

Kind and Gentle: Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

so far, ther is some truth here dere abt this analysis.

cool...

2009-03-04T10:38:00.003+08:00

haven been updated since like forever!..
been bz working and wit added course,
i truly no life for many2 things.
but it aint a regret.
im content wit how life is now.
it aint perfect but its nt very horrible.
aniwaes,
i miss my frens.
long tyme no see...
will be seeing dem this fri.
oh gosh...

mmmm...

2009-02-03T21:50:00.003+08:00

i'm simply effing tired...

2009-01-31T11:33:00.003+08:00

i caught this yesterday. and i so love every min of it.

it was nice as emotions are felt with every scene.

it is smtg tt all girls can relate too regardless of if u think ure marriage material or not.

i realli liked it.

been awhile since i last saw such a heartwarming scornful movie.

cool..

moving on, it rained yesterday.

its been a while since it rained.

i liked it.

it was nice.

had ice cream on my way home,

i love ice creams on rainy days.

beautiful indulgence.

haha..

i need cash.

herm..

for wat is worth,im thankful tt im bless wit u in my life.

2009-01-24T18:11:00.002+08:00

i wan blog but i dunno wad to blog about..
hence i shall let dia blog in my place..
so start ranting on bebey..
im hapi wit my life now...
tapi im worried about the future,
i dun noe if im stable enuf to support her,
i worried abt my life.
i wan play music back, go back to jammin sessions where life was gd.
but i cant cos its not possible, im older now and some way, ive change.
i gotta learn to consume greens and seafood, gotta win her heart and work hard to fufil her dreams. she's high maintanence but i dun mind cos she makes me happi, makes my family happi,
i want her to be confident in me and syukur alhamdulilah kita met.
and and and..
gotta practice smilling more often.
hurhur...
i cut hair today and its ugly accordin to her.
12 bucks mind you!
hurhur..im short of cash.
i jus applied spf, hopefully get.
lets give her back her blog.
i've ntg to say, jus tt im :)

2009-01-08T16:34:00.002+08:00

my first entry for year 2009.
firstly, happi 2009 people.
STOP DWELLING IN THE PAST,MOVE ON.
ITS 2009 bebey...
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so since 09 came, ive been here dere.
went to cousin house to see her baby.
oh god, baby sooo cute larhz.
i wan one too!!
haha...
aft tt, went to sue bday party.
bought for her a perfume and lipbalm.
she had a pinata filled wit sweets...
sweets!!..
haha..funni funni..
took a pic but me feeelin lazy to upload..opps
went home close to midnite bla bla..
i bled alot, its a girl thing..
stained the floor, haha cute gtu.
had terrible cramps tt nite. sad sad..
hmmmm....
aft tt, next following week, went to ICA and also NUh..
hmmm...
i dun quite rmbr aniting else.
sowie.
having poor memory cos im having flu, cough, fever etc.
its realli bad.
fever of 38.9!..felt ohh so lifeless.
oh ya, i barely hav voice to talk.
either u hear me whisper or u hear a coarse voice or smtimes ntg.
tts hw badly sick moi is currently.
but but but...
moi feel bless cos im being cared for. :)
smiles..thank u for staying up wit moi wen moi sick all.
okie la, toddles..
ooooo oooo oooo :p

2008-12-24T13:10:00.002+08:00

was readin thru my old entries and it dawn upon me..
i was still naive...even now i probably am.
i've always wanted to fall in love.
but seriously, wad is love to begin wit?
isit d words said?
acts shown?
hw do one noe wen one is in love?
to me, i dun hav a definite answer to tt.
i think its more of u know it wen it hits u.
u cant say no, yet u dun wan say no.
u get flip flops in yr tummy and u grin wenever he sms.
i dunno if once the relationship gets older, u still feel such feelings.
or it just gets lost in the years...
oh wells..for now, lets just wait for whoever he is.
and then we'll do wad i've always dreamt for..
we malo law leila tohna baeed..we sebna kol el nas

2008-12-22T21:41:00.003+08:00

im oooh soo tired..
the previous week was definately draining me..
from 16-18dec, i was a downtown east chalet wit frens..
overnite dere..
first nite was bbq, second nyte was staying up late and played board games.
it was kinda nice actualli to overnite wit frens.
oh wells..
din sleep tho..
so headed out for air at the beach at 4am plus..
made it back ard 6am plus..
i left early cos tired wan wait for others to get up.
so in train, i slept like a baby.
hahaha...
reach home, wish mummy bday and gave her prezzie,Swatch watch
den off to bed..
zzzzzZzZzzzz...
on 19dec, went tamp to buy smtg..
went hm late..
on 21dec, help stitch cousin at his weding as a kendarat..
darn im tired but its cool.
haha..
best gtu see ppl get married..
me want too.
hahahahaha...
i shall wait till he save enuf den hopefully it will happen..
:)

i need sleep again, headache creeping..yawns..

2008-12-11T12:21:00.005+08:00

gosh, i dunno wad bloody games ure playing.
ure uffing irritating and u piss me off alot.
yr silence is a killer.
to think i tot of u as a fren.
maybe im over-reacting but hell, u cant even be bother to explain yr silence.
ure such a ARGHHH!!..
i dunno why i make myself get caught up on you.
u jus dun care. U JUS DUN CARE!
such things jus makes me realise how time can change a person and tt it is not a tool to be used to measure the quality of a frenship..
time is not enuf, the duration is ntg but a number.
wad matters is the quality and how the tyme is spent and how honest the person is.
it was my flaw in believing tt u were different.
i was wrong but i make mistakes.
im onli but human.
as long as i try not to be oh so gullible again, i ought to be fine.
took me so long to realise tt ure just a normal fren all these while..
better late thn never they say.
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on a lighter note,
langkawi was cool..
nice landscapes and food was gd.
ntg much i can say.
jus tt it would be better if one could swim.
i couldnt so tt sux.
haha..
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do i miss u?
narh..
hahahaha...
u give me flip flop in my tummy.
gosh, i know wads happenning
but
i so am trying hard to resist this.
darn darn darn..
lets give in to love???
hahaha..:)

2008-11-21T19:00:00.006+08:00

it started wit a simple hi...
yet it ended splat on the floor...

damn it..
i hate arguing..
and im freakin pissed.
i just let go.
and he gt mad
real mad.
and tts tt.
hope it can still be save..
perharps, perharps, perharps
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I HATE THIS PART

We're driving slow
Through the snow
On fifth avenue
And right now radio's
All that we can hear

Man we ain't talked since we left
It's so overdue
It's cold outside
But between us its worse in here

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through my fingers

I don't want to try now
All that's lefts goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you

I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

Everyday seven takes of the same old scheme
Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now fore we go to sleep
But will we sleep once I tell you its hurting me

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through my fingers

I don't want to try now
All that's lefts goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you

I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothings wrong
But there is no more time for lies
Cause I see the sunset in your eyes

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers

I don't want to try now
All that's lefts goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you

But I gotta do it I gotta do it
I gotta do itI hate this part
I gotta do itI gotta do it

I gotta do it
I hate this part right here
And I just can't take these tears
I hate this part right here

2008-10-17T14:48:00.005+08:00

heeeyoooo mates...

gawd!! yesterday graduation was oooohh sooo beautiful..

its at orchid country club.

i know its nt a hotel but who cares???

its a realli nice place, beautiful scenery..full of nature and the weather was cooling.

its jus so breathtaking..

and we paid onli $10!

the rest sponsored by the sch. :)

so aniwaes, took loads of pics with frens and non frens..

as in ppl i dun realli come into contact often.

since tts the last tyme we'll ever be ard each other, i took the opportunity to take pics with practically those i noe or noticed.

hehe...

after the event, me, cheryl, sheila, yue ling and suhaila wen to town..

we missed the bus tt would take us to the train station,

but we gt a ride from the principal instead!

Mr Tan rawks for lettin us ride in his car.

damn tts gd. haha..

at far east, stitch joined and we took nprints at cineleisure.

hehe...

aft tt, parted ways...

me wen dinner wit izfau.

i got a bday treat to delifrance.

i ate seafood baked rice and drank "le tango".

nice nice.

we couldnt buy me a present cos by the tyme we finish dinner, takashimaya was closing..

:( sad.. sobs sobs...

he says he'll get me smtg soon..

so yep yey yey..

haha..im sooo easily pleased..

well enuf..

lets show u jus a pic of wad we gurls wore on grad.

jus 1 picture k.

too much is not gd for the eyes

its addictive i tell euu..haha

3 years, 3 gurls; its a 3some

2008-10-15T11:11:00.009+08:00

lets backtrack the dates a little kie...

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on last monday, we jln raya..
we went far far places.
i like all the houses we went,
so nice ambience
love love..
oh, noor mom is realli niceee...
love love tt
had fun and laughter dere
cool.. :)
went hm at 11+pm..
tts not bad considering on last fri, i came hm at 12+am
took last bus hm tired..ish ish..

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yesterday was last day at sch
so ppl, im offically no longer schling
gerek kape..
haha..
went on shoppin spree..fun fun..
wen all ard bugis lookin for shoe, found it
bought victoria secret body splash-Berry kiss

niceeee...so sweet surgary smelling...
had naked fish for dinner..
den off to home..

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tmr is graduation...
im still pretty blur at wad to wear etc..
yelps..

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lol..
so happi bday to me
im twenty today
gosh, im gonna be married sooon..
hahahahahahahahaaaaa....
tat will onli happen if and only if i find someone tt so loves me back
so yeah...
moving on, my previous entry i wrote abt wanting tt perfume,
well i got my present from mom and im happi
its this...

its ralph lauren Romance..its a perfume tt evokes the timeless essence of falling in love...
isnt tt great? its so me... and its 100ml!!..yeahhh
*hearts melting*
well, now i've two scents, this and my victoria secret.
life is gd syukur alhamdulilah, amin
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for all those tt wish me in this day of mine, thank euu so much..
i appreciate it alot
love u peeps..muackz. hehe...
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oh ya.. to my twin haiqal..
a fella same bday as me,
happi bday to u too... :)

2008-10-05T15:19:00.005+08:00

okie.. prelims are over, hari raya is now, A's soon.
sharks. all in lesss thn a month tyme. narh narh narh.
bday is soon too..
so my wants are simple. jus great nice things tt i can wear.
means i can wear it on myself k.
preferably nt too girlish but is girl enuf to be worn.
simply simple yet nice sweet
tts its.
but if u insist to noe den i shall give a tip..
i wan this badly..

yes.
ralph lauren perfume. small one also can..45ml is gd enuf. lol
i need this..the exact same one.so yeah..i miss smelling like this
tts it..
(:

2008-09-02T16:17:00.006+08:00

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?
Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?
The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?
Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,I am yours.
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?
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the month of ramadahn has started and i've been diligently doing my prayers.
i do feel better and more whole as a person.
hope this lasts beyond this month and be forever with me.
aniwaes, i keep making fir angry at me.
tt sux cos i nvr meant to do so.
maybe im just too ignorant of his feelings.
sigh. im only a human.
i make mistakes alot.
i jus dun wan my mistakes to bite me bad.
i jus wanted to be a gd fren to fir.
sigh. cant even achieve tt.
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i've made mr ica angry at me.
whoops...:(

2008-08-28T23:10:00.004+08:00

meant for euu..
im still waiting for the day tt u'll put aside yr ego and ask me for wad u truly wanted.
it sucks to be left hanging.
sigh.
paramore song crushcrushcrush has begun its cycle in my life again.
listen to it and u'll noe wat im talkin abt.
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gp was tougher thn before.
to me, the content was so limited.
not alot of choices in essay topics
paper 2 was more un-nice to do.
talked abt "fear"
sigh.
after tt, went aunt hm.
played with my nieces and cat.
hehe.
i took a nap aniwaes.
aft tt, went this aunty hm to measure my raya clothes.
this year, its gonna be made to mesure.
lol
happi sey me.
den wen hm wit mummy.
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yesterday, me, sheila, su, stitch, chiong n yong quan
caught the thai horror movie 4bia.
shit ass. i screamed alot sia.
movie scared me sey.
boleh gila bebx.
siow.
wen hm wit chiong.
he sent me hm.:)
nyeh nyeh nyeh..

well, tts its. yeah

2008-08-19T12:11:00.003+08:00

to all educators, this is for euu!!..haha..

It's not the fault of student if he/she fails because the year ONLY has 365 days...
typical academic year for a student:

1. Sundays - 52 Sundays in a year, you know Sundays are for rest. Days left 313.

2. Summer holidays - 50 where weather is very hot and difficult to study.Days left 263.

3. 8 hours daily sleep - 130 days GONE. Days left 141.

4. 1 hour for daily playing- (good for health) means 15 days. Days left 126.

5. 2 hours daily for food & other delicacies (chewing properly & swallowing) - means 30 days. Days left 96.

6. 1 hour for talking (man is a social animal) - means 15 days. Days left 81.

7. Exam days - per year at least 35 days. Days left 46.

8. Quarterly, half yearly and festival (holidays) - 40 days. Days left 6.

9. For sickness - at least 3 days. Days left 3.

10. Movies and functions- at least 2 days. 1 day left.

11. That 1 day is your birthday. How can you study on that day ?!?!?!?!?!

Balance = 0
' How can a student pass ?????'

hehe..i find it amusing ey..hehe..
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aniwaes, i haven been blogging consistently cos im busy doin alot of stuffs.
haha..
i cant think of anitin to talk abt.
so yeah..
take care bebx

2008-08-12T17:06:00.004+08:00

hey ya..
i went to d zoo yesterday!
haha..free tix bebx.
so i was late for an hr. opps.
hehe. thank god he tak mrh me.
so we meet at cck int, took 927.
by noon, we already in zoo. hehe.
we went in d gift shop and played wit animals(toys).
took pix as well.
hehe.
after tt, we walked and walked.
i wanted see d baboons badly and boy, was it shockingly kiut!
haha..
so aniwaes, while fir was trying to take d pic of a female baboon,
suddenly out nowhere comes a male baboon.
and guess wad he did???
(he shove his dick into d female and derre they were humping and thumping away.)
it was like porn rite smack in my face!
haha.
i, fir and noor gave this face like wat d...??
den we broke into laughter!
we laugh so hard till i had tears.
haha.
fancy seeing such acts in public!
moving on, we saw alot of other animals.
wad i love was d butterflies surrounding us, 1 butterfly even flew in fir hands and didnt budge

lucky him.

we saw cute otters, this animal tt acts like a security guard cos it kept standing at d same spot and din move. darn cute.
saw d tigers patrollin frm left to ryte and back.
i told fir to join in d patrol as well since he shld be on duty nw.
hehe.
so yeah, it was fruitful cos it was niceee!
took loads of pic so i'll upload it soon okie.
we leave at abt 4 hrs aft entry.
headed to kfc and chomp chomp d food away.
by 5pm, we were gone.
i and noor headed to Jp and yeap, noor was in his bitchy mood.
haha. funny sia he.
after all tt, i went hm.
yep. tts abt it.
great day (:
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aniwaes today,
i keep getting hiccups!
and chiong didnt be my alarm clock today.
instead he woke me up last nite at midnite.
wth, i was sleeping!!.
hehe.
he gt scolded by me btw.
but its all good.
hehe..
today is nt bad except for hiccups.
tts tiring ya noe..
any remedies u cld spare me wit??

2008-08-09T15:41:00.003+08:00

IF only all guys are tis sweet..

So it was their 7th month anniversary and the girl calls her boyfriend:

-Girl:I love you.
- Boy:Yeah I know everyone does!
-Girl:Really?
- Boy:Yeah...everyone of my friends that are girls tell me that everyday.
- Girl:Oh...but am I only your friend?
- Boy:No...you're my girlfriend...why?
- Girl:So when I say I love you I really do mean it.
- Boy:Yeah I know you do mean it...its just that you dont need to tell me that you love me anymore cuz I know you love me since the day we been together and i love you more each and everyday.
- Girl:..........
- Boy:So wanna go somewhere tonight for our 7th month anniversary?
- Girl:Yeah...where?
- Boy:I dont know...maybe movie then dinner?
-Girl:Ok.
- Boy:I'll pick you up after I get off and get ready ok?-
-Girl:Ok. What time do you get off?
- Boy: In 2 hours and then I gotta go home and yeah get ready which takes about 15-20 minutes...
-Girl:hey...I thought you didnt have work today...
- Boy:One of my co-workers called in sick
- Girl:Oh okay! So sill see you around 7:30 then?
- Boy:Yeah! and babe?
- Girl:Yeah?
- Boy:I love you.
- Girl:I love you too!
- Boy:Ok my manager is like looking at me so yeah.... i gotta go.
- Girl:Ok bye.
- Boy:Bye.
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2 hours later...The guy drives to his girlfriends house and walks up to the door and rings the doorbell....
- Girl:Hey!(gives a kiss to her boyfriend)
- Boy:Wadssup.....you ready?
- Girl:Um...wait...let me get my bag and we can go ok?
- Boy:Ok.
They both watched a movie and ate dinner...
once they were done eating, they headed back to the car but before she got into the car.......
- Boy:Wait! Can I blindfold you?
- Girl:Why??!?
- Boy:Its a surprise.
- Girl:What kinda surprise??
- Boy:A big one.
- Girl:Okay but only if you promise me tat you will hold my hand while we're driving...
- Boy:I promise.
- Girl:Ok blindfold me.....
So they drove off.........and then they stopped....
- Boy:Ok we're here!!
-Girl:Where??
- Boy:Wait let me walk you to the place!
- Girl:What place??
- Boy:Somewhere!(and gives a kiss to her on the lips..)
- Girl:Baby!..
.The boy walks her to the place....
- Boy:Ok...let me take the blindfold off.
- Girl:Where are we??
He takes it off her and she opens her eyes and sees the view of the city and at tat same spot....
that's where he first asked her to be his girlfriend......
- Girl:Omg...!(tears come down)
- Boy:Why are you crying?
- Girl:This is where you first asked me out...
- Boy:What are you doing the rest of your life?
(he asked on his knees and after he says that...behind him...in the air it says 'Will you marry me?' in fireworks)
- Girl:(tears come down faster)
- Boy:I wasnt at work when you called me...I was planning this whole thing!
- Girl:Get up!
- Boy:Yeah?
- Girl:(kisses him)
- Boy:Is that a yes or a no?
- Girl:Yes.
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lets update..
yesterday we had ndp celebrations in sch.
had a mini parade, flag bypass and sing along session.
afterwards, me, suhaila, sheila, stitch, azie and chiong met up and we had meal at mcd.
after tt, azie went hm while us 5 headed to cineleisure to take nprints.
haha. thanks to sheila and su who wanted to take it.
after tt, su and stitch left.
me, sheila and chiong went walking in town den we went to esplanade.
we sat at d library for i was very tired.(sick ma)
by evening, we ate at marina square.
after tt, we left and headed hm.
chiong sent me hm but haha..
i pull a fast one on him and sent him hm instead.
but he didnt get to go hm for he gotta go help his mom out at d stall.
so we walk back to bt gombak station.
d bus was so slow so i took d train wit him and drop at bb.
so yeah.
i ran home aniwaes for i was late cos dad goin abroad.
so yeah..
after all tt drama,
i watched another drama; devdas.
a hindi show.
so nice and sad..
gosh..
i slept at 2 plus aniwaes.
haha..
**********************************************
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
lets all watch d parade and fireworks.
yeah.. :)
-patriotic for d day

2008-08-02T13:03:00.007+08:00

allos!..

long tyme didnt blog..

sowie..

aniwaes, these week was so great. it was filled wit lotsa stuffs.

so lets start.

i caught 2 movies in d week!

HELLBOY 2 on wed.

THE MUMMY 3 on thurs.

both were good shows.

yes yes must see okie!

so on fri, i went to downtown east wit cheryl n sheila.

we wanted to check out d chalet n stuffs cos plannin to go on upcoming dec later on..

some parts was still under construction but i ssure u tt once d place is done, it will be freaking freaking good!

haha..

aniwaes, we ate at this place called bbq chicken.

it was realli good n cool.

lets jus see d pics okie

-frm d seats to d food to us..

haha..so yes..tts a happy us..and very full.

we did finish up d chicken all 8 pieces.

d fries was good sia..

coleslaw was so great.

jus worth d money.

$48 for all tt. we like it alot.

yey!

haha..'

tts abt it la..catch ya soon..

2008-07-21T13:09:00.004+08:00

dear my fren,
you know, i've always been quiet whenever u talk cos i like listening to you.
however, i feel its time i let u hear my thoughts.
u talk abt being bad to gurls. HELL. i totally udst tt hatred u feel.
i know life's been hard and love is unfair to u. tts y u become wad u were den. u say tt we girls dun appreciate wad u guys do for us. to a certain extent its true.
i udst yr pt of view but i disagree wit u wanting to be wad u were before. u onli see the bad things us girls did but did u realise tt u guys are just as bad?
u samakn all girls base on yr experience.
tts unfair.
i too could have done the same cos u guys have broken me time and time again.
i could play with u guys hearts if i want too but tts not me and im sure tts not u.
u're a good guy and i dun wan see my fren go down the dark path.
ther's too many sesat ppl now and i dun want u to add on to tt no.

u stay as u are now; balance in between good n bad.

i knew u this way and unless u wan change to be better. if not den i rather u stay tis way.

i jus refuse to lose a fren.

u've supported me alot thru my ups n downs and i wan do d same to u.

since we are frens, dere's dese mutual agrrement to help each other out in times like this.

i know im probably jus a normal fren cos u've loads out dere. i jus hope tt u realise my care and concern for u is real and tt u wld at least reconsider yr decision abt changing.

im nt tt perfect fren but at least im trying to be a fren to u.

please say u'll think it thru.

hopefully this sets u thinking and if im wrong den im sorry.

im jus trying my best to tell u cos i dun wan lose my fren.

*tum mere sabse ache dost ho aur mein tumhein khona nahi chahti*

yours truly,
yr fren

2008-07-18T13:48:00.006+08:00

i didnt attend school today.
wasnt feeling well emotionally
i cant quite place exactly why i feel so down but i assume it has to do with yesterday outing.
it wasnt bad but it has its flaws.
so lets backtrack n figure out why..
yesterday d day started out kinda slow for me.
i wasnt in the best of mood actualli.
i was almost late for sch and i had to run after d bus.
so i was a lil pissed.
first period econs; i couldnt focus.
i was blankly wasting tyme away. so nt beneficial.
and then..i entertain myself by sms-in fir askin abt wanna meet..
so we kinda agreed on movie.
den i had management and it was another darn boring lesson.
gp was oh god. i had headache. it was jus too much n i lost all interest.
finally sch's over.

took d train went wld to catch movie The Dark Knight wit fir n frens.
altogether 6 of us.
me 2, he 4.
dey were late but i felt bad tt due to dem buyin popcorn dey kinda miss a few mins of d movie.
tt sux.
if i cld, i wld have not ask for popcorn.
in d end, i ate so little of it.
i jus couldnt digest it though i was realli quite hungry.
d movie was gd. realli nice but i must say tt i was stress watchin d movie.
a few scenes were kinda intriguing.
but overall nice.
d joker was cool yeah..
its a gd watch yeah..:)
after tt, i started feeling worser than ever before.
my heart sank. and i grew irritable n emo.
i jus was....
truth is, all i wanted was a nice plc to sit jus u n me.
we'll bring frens later cos im barely comfortable wit u let alone with frens around.
i find it hard to react and be me cos i dun wan be judge wrongly.
i couldnt breath, caged up n no freedom to jus be let loose.
im all tense as it is.
but i cant blame him cos i too didnt think tt havin frens along wld cause problems.
im usualli not like this.
im becomin different.
i think too much. im afraid.
im lettin too much info out.
i dun wan be public.
im whiny.
wher's my happiness?
i've lost it big tyme.
sadness is engulfing me..
oh crap..shut d hell up will ya
will somebody be nice and hear me out??

2008-07-12T21:29:00.003+08:00

It’s you And me Movin’

at the speed of light until eternity

Tonight Is the night

To join me in the middle of ecstasy

Feel the melody

And the rhythm of the music around you (Around you)

Ima take you there (Ima take u there)

So don’t be scared

I’m right here baby

We can go anywhere (Go anywhere)

But firstIt’s your chance take my hand

Come with me

It’s like I waited my whole life

For this one night

It’s gon be me you and the dance floor‘

Cuz we only got one night

Double your pleasure

Double your fun

And dance forever ever ever

Forever ever ever

Forever on the dance floor

Feel like we’re on another level

It’s like our love’s intertwined
We can be two rebels

Breakin’ the rules

Me and you

You and I

All you gotta do is watch me (Watch me)

Look what I can do with my feet (My feet)

Baby, feel the beat in time

If only you could take the front seat (Front seat)

Just need u to trust me (Trust me)

Girl (girl) (girl)

It’s like I waited my whole life

For this one night

It’s gon be me you and the dance floor‘

Cuz we only got one night

Double your pleasure

Double your fun

And dance forever ever ever

Forever ever ever

Forever on the dance floor

It’s a long way down

You’re so high off the ground

Sendin’ for an angel to break me apart

Girl where did you come from?

Got me so undone

Gaze in your eyes

Got me singing

What a beautiful lady

No if ands or maybes

I really listen

My hearts feelin’ amazing

Theres no one else that matters

You Love me

But I won’t let you fall girl (Let you fall girl)

Ohhhh Ohhhhh Ohhh Ohhhhhh

YeahhhI won’t let you fall ( Let you fall Let you Fall)

O0ooooh Ohhhhh Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeahh

It’s like I waited my whole life

For this one night

It’s gon be me you and the dance floor‘

Cuz we only got one night

Double your pleasure

Double your fun

And dance forever ever ever

Forever ever ever

Forever on the dance floor

oooh oooh oooh oooh

-currently in love wit this

2008-07-11T21:13:00.003+08:00

so today i had d mgt outing to Sunshine bakery factory.
it was fun actualli cos we gt to see first hand hw bread production is
saw all d machine used n wads d process went thru..
kinda cool actualli..
had free loaf of bread as gifts. haha
aniwaes, after tt...

me went back to sch area n went for dental apt near sch dere..
so i gt a root cleaning for my upper teeth costing $70!
so expensive since its only d upper teeth.
d dentist keept digging n digging.
it hurt alot. but somehow i kinda like d pain.
haha!
i guess rough is gd afterall..hehe
so aniwaes, it was so bloody. like as if someone just punch me in d mouth
n i bleeed..
so after tt,
she did scaling for d below teeth; $20
polishing for both upper n lower; $15
so aniwaes altogether it cost $117.70 inclusive gst.
kinda expensive but was worth it.
now i have a great smile. wahahaha...(at least tts wad i tink)
damn i love goin to d dentist.
next dental apt is 2 months frm now.
nxt nuh doc apt is 4 months frm now..
i love d stuffs tt is link to doctors/hospitals.
so nice sey such places..
i shld have beeen a nurse;NOT!
lol..

aniwaes, aidil piss me off sey.
hey peps, tell me smtg.
am i not nice enuf?
seriously. am i not nice?
just tell me?
somebody? anybody?
say it like u mean it okie.

tts it..

2008-07-10T22:20:00.002+08:00

so yesterday, me met up wit fir at bugis. walked around..
met his fren ted n went peninsula.
lol.. i was totally reminded of aidil..
aniwaes, ted wanted to find smtg musical since he plays d urm..guitar.
after tt, wen to eat.
actually must thank ted for saying go mkn cos i was so hungry la but didnt dare voice out.
but den LJS didnt taste gd at all. sigh.. was wasted.
actually i wanted, far east plaza cos its cheap n its slow food.
but i scared wan tell fir cos he scares me.
mmm..
after tt, we parted ways..
train ride sucks so bad. i was totally squeezed la. i felt soo small. :(
but gt one male tall ang moh smile at me. so tt rox. wahahaha..
tts practically it..

today, tot of catchin a movie but narh, grew tired.
maybe i'll watch it tmr instead...
i've ntg to say animore jus tt im tired. yes i am.
so gd nite, chio

2008-07-07T16:32:00.003+08:00

euu noe..whenever i want be in love, i have none
but wen i wan give up on it, comes all dese guys frm god knows wher claiming love
i have doubts over such guys cos
it jus dun seem real.
hw could u fall in love within minutes/day n best of all, u haven seen d face
i dun say tt im into looks but im a liar if i say i dun go for looks
everyone does but seldom dey wan admit
i dun wan a fancy hensem guy
average is all i need. as long as he's pleasing to my eyes, who cares abt wad others think abt his looks?
afterall, its me hu's gonna wake up to his face in future shld we marry.
RIGHT?
aniwaes, i hate breakin ppl heart cos i know hw painful it cld be.
but smtimes i dun have a choice. its better i tell now dat i dun love u den later in future.
tt wld suck like crap. trust me i know.
damn.
love is so irritatingly addictive though
it drives me nuts but still i wan be tt nutty girl in love.
nw all i need is a right guy to sweep me off my feet n together we'll be forever in love..
haha..so dreaming..
truth is my hearts damaged..
tts all im tellin out.
a damaged heart takes ages to heal.
sigh..
u wan noe smtg?
im allergic to being alone
yes u saw right.
being alone is a big no no for me.
i dun like it unless d whole world sucks den i guess being alone rox.
but yeap im allergic to loneliness.
hw i noe??
well i took tickle test n tts wad they say.
haha..cute ryte??

aniwaes, catch this songs..
-closer by ne yO
-the last time by trey songs

tts it..chios

2008-07-04T19:49:00.002+08:00

okie now exams r over hence can now blog.
i realised i hadn't talk abt wad i did durin d june hols.
actualli its notin much.
jus loads of family outings etc..

i went to d chalet at changi for 2 days 1 nite.
didnt feel like stayin another nite cos im alone dere(my family didnt go)
so i was wit my aunts uncles family all tt.
felt ok but i miss my family tts y i went hm d second nite.
aniways, d first nite,
i stayed up wit d guys talkin abt stuffs ranging frm ghost to matreps!
haha..shuffle..so nonsense..
aniwaes, we stayed up d whole nite..darn cool.
my first wit d guys.
lol
at roughly ard 3am+,
we smell d scent of tt "lady"
we went all quiet actualli.
we jus stared at each other nt darin to turn sideways.
gosh, tt was freaky but still, it rox!
haha..
somehw we crashed to bed ard 9am after breakfast.
we couldn't take it.
so off we were to zzzzZZZzz..
aniwaes, i left ard evenin n took d bus frm tamp to wld den hm..
guess who i saw at tamp int!!??
lol..say my baby aidil!wit gf.
i was like GAWD..lol
he didnt notice me but she did.
oh wells, she said ntg to him so i guess its all gd.
hehehehe...
(ps: aidil is my nicest close fren ever)

den i dun rmbr wad i did..
so aniwaes, movin on..
i went to batam. yes batam
lol..
we stayed in d holiday inn resort.
its so pretty u noe..
damn nice..
went shoppin and karaoke..
ooo did i mention tt it was jus an all girls outin??
so it was jus my aunts n d girl cousins.
darn cool..
lol
saw a fun side of my aunts n all..
should do it more often..
nice nice..
:)

mmmm...i caught d movie narnia..i love it alot.
i need d dvd for tt man..

i caught hancock yesterday..
it was gd but nt great.
i wld jus rate it ard 3/5.. average realli..

i cant wait for movie The dark knight!!..
seems darn cool la..yeah babey..
lol..

i tink i shld post wad song of d day/week is.
cos im madly in love wit songs so might as well share it wit u peps..
so go ahead listen to:
-damaged by danity kane
-maybe by jay sean
-forever by chris brown
-all songs by Day26(try come with me, got me going & i want u exclusive)

tts all for now..see ya..byes..

2008-06-28T22:14:00.003+08:00

DAMAGED by DANITY KANE

[Shannon:]
Do, Do you got a first aid kit handy?
Do, Do you know how to patch up a wound?
Tell me, Are-are-are-are you? Are you patient, Understanding?
Cause I might need some time to clear the hole in my heart and I

[All:]
I've tried every remedy And nothing seems to work for me

[D. Woods:]
Baby, (baby) This situation’s driving me crazy
And I really wanna be your lady
But the one before you left me so

[Chorus:]
Damaged, damaged Damaged, damaged
I thought that I should let you know
That my heart is Damaged, damaged So damaged (so damaged)
And you can blame the one before
So how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it? (Baby, I gotta know)
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it? (What you are gonna do, baby?)
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it? (Baby, I gotta know)
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it? (What you are gonna do?)

[Andrea:]
Do, Do you got a first aid kit handy?
Do, Do you know how to patch up a wound?
Tell me, Are-are-are-are you? Are you patient, Understanding?
'Cause I might need some time to clear the hole in my heart and I

[Aubrey:]
You try to gain my trust
Talking is not enough
Actions speak louder than words
You gotta show me something
My heart is missing some pieces
I need this puzzle put together again

[All:]
Can you fix my h-e-a-r-t?
Cause it d-a-m-a-g-e-d?
Can you fix my h-e-a-r-t?
Tell me are you up for the challenge
Cause my heart is Damaged, damaged Damaged, damaged
I thought that I should let you know
That my heart is Damaged, damaged So damaged (so damaged)
And you can blame the one before Damaged, damaged damaged, damaged
I thought that I should let you know
That my heart is Damaged, damaged So Damaged (so damaged)
And you can blame the one before
So how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it?
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it?
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it?
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it?

2008-06-28T11:37:00.001+08:00

so much happenins but no time to blog..
EXAMS EXAMS EXAMS!!...
must study uh...
catch ya laters..
muackz :p

2008-05-31T23:32:00.026+08:00

(before i start, i wan post a shoutout to my fren;
MD SYAFIQ who turn 20 on 1st june!.
may allah bless you wit good health and happiness always,
have a great bday and see ya around :p)

and so after all d shit she put me thru,
i had to find new teammates
and im thankful tt i found a better team thn before
we are called d "GREEN TEAM/ GREEN DAY" like how d guy at d luge ride refer to us as..
hehehehe...

so we started out a lil rough.
nazree lost his wallet otw dere so tt totally sux
i found it hard to run in slippers and shit, tt sux too
hanisa forgot her inhaler and tt sux
sheila was simply sheila, demure and quiet..

but still we persevered regardless of how dead we felt.
in d end, we came in 2nd!!
hard to blif yes i noe but blif it.
its true.
we beat 8 other teams to be in 2nd place.
dang!! wooohooo!
such a great feeling.
seriously.i cant describe wad we had to go thru cos its alot from
b4 d race to during d race and it felt gd to have won.
it was such a great event and we had loads of fun.
now let d pix do d talking..

30th may 2008

-(sentosa card)

-("passport")

-(sheila squinting to see d map & naz emo away abt his wallet)

-(hanisa is happi while izza is uuhhh??)

-(grp pix in d bus otw to tanjong beach 1st station)

-(posing wit our food)

-(the "extras" who wanna be in d green team)hee

-(the chairman who gave us d prize)

-(tts our reward, $20 ben jerry voucher)

-(all d grps and commitee)

-(the GREEN TEAM)

on a personal note:

i couldnt have asked for a better team

we worked hard and played hard

we nvr gave up on each other and

not on ourselves.

we prove to others tt we too can achieve greatness as long as we have faith and keep going.

i thank god for giving me this team and hopefully our friendship dun end

and may u guys cherish every min of it.
love u peeps to bits and pieces! mwwwaah..lol

2008-05-31T23:09:00.009+08:00

today my cousin Faris gt engage to his beloved gf Suzy!
their ceremony seems like a mini wedding..
gt seats, buffet, mini bus to ferry us to and fro etc.. cute eh
come on, lets jus view d picx okies..there's actualli more but it aint wit me nw
so lets make do wit this first okie

first up is wad i helped carry..
-(tts for d girl side)

-(tts for d guy side)

-( us wit her)

-(me emo-ing while holding d gift)

well aniwaes, congrats to both of them
and hope it last till marriage and forever,amin
cheers :)

2008-05-28T20:04:00.005+08:00

so today was another acc mock exam..passed but nt tt great..

moving on, i despise her. (if u're her den read on and digest BUT if u're nt her, den just skip)
so, get tis clear.
i NEVER beg u to join d team. you join on yr own accord.
YES i asked if u were free but i never begged you ok!
and Yes i recommended him as a team mate but it was u who asked him personally.
and we never asked stitch to join.
u went ahead to tell him so basically no such thing as a SWITCH!
we made plans n agreed as a team but wen yr guy grew nonsensically angri,
u threw me in d pic and put all blame on me wen u're just as wrong.
dere is no such ting as a dirty job as onli u gt his number.
wat a BIATCh..
(and tt guy, u join cos u like her and wen she left, u left too..sigh)
back to her again
to save yr ass in d relationship, u sacrifice mine.
to tell u d truth, yr relationship is firstly bullshit to even begin with.
wad a total loser la.
abit abit he sulk, control freak, jealous to a pt its illogical,
self centered guy and u're a self destructing dumb girl.
for him, u stab me, stab d team.
is tt fair??
u didnt even apologise.
thanks to u, i lost 2 players n gain 1
(kau menyusahkn org aje)
u both r in sheer denial.
wad is love if over a little stuff he wanna break up?
he dun love u enuf to understand u nor even try to.
wher's d compromising factor here?
hello!!?? its missing.
love aint abt meetin every single day and kis n make up.
its abt give n take and seriously he's so nt giving.
BET he's smirkin nw tt u ditched us for him.
u're such a LETDOWN.
u can laugh n be merry nw but it wont last cos god is great
and he wont let those in d wrong suffer.
so go ahead and be happi k.
get this: I'LL NEVER LOOK AT YOU D SAME WAY AGAIN.
you were too much.
darn, i dun hate u but i never will like u again.
u're nt a fren. jus an aquantaince.
tts it.
y dun u quit sch and marry him?
easier wad. den can spent tyme every minute.
everyday eat out, act like rich wen actualli d ppl at hm are bloody famished.
wad a loser.
dang- hope u realise b4 its too late.
dun say i never warn.

2008-05-23T23:39:00.007+08:00

INFOCOMM CLUB

elloz!!

so we had our last cca meetin..

it was so sad i almost cried!

i miss my shadow crew!..
we were first welcome into d ava room wit loads of crazie ribbons sprayed at us!

it was so madness laah but cute!!

lol..

den we had appetizers in d form of all sorts of crackers!!( prawn la, potato chips la)..

after tt, had pizza! lol..

6 boxes in total!

n all is eaten..seriously all..

woah..

den speech by d teachers..

so touchin..:(

our juniors pool $ and buy us a farewell prezzie..

its realli heavy and pretty..

i haven open it cos its so prettily wrapped..

so yeah..

will open it soon..lol

den we went bowlin at CSC..

played 3 games wit onli 6 players

(me, sheila, sammuel, shane, eileen, yon quan)+ (jack n johnathan who play 1 game)..

and we kena pay $60!

so shocked la..

apparently we were stupidly cheated..

*furch!*( my new bad wrd created)

but its ok..

we had a great game.. so it was worth it..

crazie ethics la..lol

tts abt it lar..

`~plannin for sentosa trips wit cca juniors durin d june

cool ehk..

its nice to be a part of a club and be as one united family!!

yea baby yea..lol

i personnally will miss my crewmates cos

we`ve been tru alot and it means alot to be a part of their lives..

we all are inter-connected and i cherish every moment of it..

shadow crew rox!

left:new ex-co den ex ex-co

2008-05-23T13:57:00.005+08:00

paramore- crush crush crush

I got a lot to say to you

Yeah, I got a lot to say

I noticed your eyes are always glued to me

Keeping them here and it makes no sense at all

They taped over your mouth, scribbled out the truth with their lies

Your little spies

They taped over your mouth, scribbled out the truth with their lies

Your little spies

Crush, crush, crushCrush, crush(1, 2, 3, 4)

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone

Just the one, two I was just counting on

That never happens

I guess I'm dreaming again

Let's be more than' this

If you want to play it like a game

Come on, come on let's play'

Cause I'd rather waste my life pretending

than have to forget you for one whole minute

They taped over your mouth, scribbled out the truth with their lies

Your little spies

They taped over your mouth, scribbled out the truth with their lies

Your little spies

Crush, crush, crushCrush, crush(1, 2, 3, 4)

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone

Just the one, two I was just counting on

That never happens

I guess I'm dreaming again

Let's be more than' this now

Rock and roll baby, don't you know that we're all alone now

I need something to sing about

Rock and roll honey, don't you know, baby that we're all alone now

I need something to sing about

Rock and roll hey, don't you know, baby that we're all alone now

Give me something to sing about

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone

Just the one, two I was just counting on

That never happens

I guess I'm dreaming again

Let's be more than' no

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone

Just the one, two I was just counting on

That never happens

I guess I'm dreaming again

Let's be more than'

More than this

Ohh

Hmm

*this i specially dedicate to him!*

2008-05-21T16:00:00.006+08:00

well...
tis entry is solely related to me n onli me..
so yeah..
aniwaes,
i wish u wld talk to me..
even a simple hi or nod seems gd
but u're not.
y are u findin out who am i if u aint interested?
well, tts hw u project it to be..
gawd..
i dun like d waitin game
cos its slow and i cant move on..
i wan move on shld it aint be u
u givin me hope..
gosh..
pls let it be
but if its nt den i gotta know soon..
hols r comin up and for d whole mth,
i wont see u!!
im gonna mish you..
opps...tts so frank..lol

aniwaes, i have tis interest in "happiness"
even my gp essay was abt happiness.
i like it cos its actualli quite broad in content.
wad truly makes us happi?
is it wealth? health? or poor?
wad is happiness?
is yr happiness same as mine?
i doubt so cos wad happiness means to me is nt d same as to you...
so u see, i love happiness but i guess i seldom get it..
or maybe i do but i dun notice..
darn i dunno..

hey, im falling sick often..
flu la...cough la..bla bla bla...
lack of sleep...
think too much..
stupid thoughts...

enuf said.
tts it..

2008-05-09T22:01:00.009+08:00

alot has occur in d past days,
most of it is personal aniwaes so yea..

i watch 2 movies today.

first was Ayat Ayat cinta(verses of love)
i expected a melodramatic indonesian typical love sick movie
BUT
i was soo wrong..
it was soo good tt i dun mind watchin it all over again.

it wasnt a lovesick sobby storyline.
it was abt islam and it was brought to life so beautifully.
~love tt trancends beyond boundaries of religion.
it addresses issues such as polygamy.
it showed tt polygamy isnt as easy as it sounds, its realli hard.
tt u cant never be truly fair n equal to yr wives.
hence dun marry more if u cant be fair k!
dere was also recitations of verses frm d Quran which made d show even more superb.
its a MUST WATCh for all.
i bet anione wld appreciate it regardless of diff. religion.
its tt powerful.
wow..

and its nt jus preachin abt islam.
its talkin abt love n love is smt tt anione can relate too.
jus watch it k.
a line frm d film`to love doesnt mean to have possession of d person`
ponder on tt..

second movie was Ironman..
lol..
i expected more.
more action wld be cool.
first 1hr was soooo Borin lar..
aft tt it slowly pick up pace but still too late..
onli enjoyed d figtin scenes.
tts it.

first movie was sooo much much better!!

on another note..
i tink i`ve fallen for u..
i dunno y even but i guess tts fate..
hits u wen u least expect it;
no warning signs even.
jus happen.
no idea if u`re d one but its worth hopin.

u see, im smitten by u.
i like all abt u.
u`re nt perfect but im willin to accept tt.
i jus gotta tell u my feelins nw i guess
but i cant cos i dun wan my feelins to hurt our frenship.
hence u may never know abt tis..
but its ok.
as d author Nicholas Sparks puts it `to love is to see yr half happy wit/out u`
if ure happi den im feelin jus as elated for u..

love is weird..
like jason mraz sings it
`it takes no tyme to fall in love,
but it takes u years to know wad love is`
its so true.

~aishiteru, liabe, amor, pyaar, baiser, bacio, cinta, ai..

different pronounciations but it all share one common meanin;LOVE~

2008-04-27T12:13:00.006+08:00

wells, my liabe life is like an open book.
its excitin yet empty,
makes u hunger for more yet too full to turn a pg
it sparks curiosity but dies instantly.
i dun tink i have probs in attractin whoever i wan in mind
but its hard to keep the flame alive...
mmmm...

i made a new fren, he`s so much different frm wat ppl say..
realli nice sincere sweet witty n truly honest.
if i had known better, i would have taken d risk n jus smile at him den..
he aint proud nor arrogant. he`s jus quiet i assume..
yea..
sweet dibbs..:p

also made conversation wit tis fella in sch..
he`s jus as cute n actualli more cuter thn before.
we talked abt hair..lol
weird i noe..
but its a start..
i love making eyes at him-i meant eye contact k!
lol...
im lookin forward for sch more now thanks to him..
my motivation lies in him ...
weee~

nw another boi is aidil..
sweetest fren ever..
we ate dinner tt nite..hersheys choc cake..
yummy!!
lol
i miss him..
hugo intense made me weak in my knees..
lost senses wit jus a sniff..
felt yr warmth
and instantly i knew i never wan u lost..

nw nw, yesterday was AKE nite.
d event was a success and boi i love bein a part of it..
sweestest feelin ever..
took lots of fotos..
seein d AKE members cried made me realise tt
im so gonna miss my lil cca boys..
we`ve been tru loads together and it sucks tt im steppin down soon..
missin u boys already..boo hoo..

*ShADOW CREW ROX ALL D WAY!! *

and on tt note, i end tis entry....

2008-04-17T20:29:00.003+08:00

u noe, its true tht u cant rely on anione else but yrself.
i had enuf of such people..
forget it kay.!

aniwaes, today was miBIg walk..
it was rainin but we still walk...
lol..it was funni bebx..
4 rounds and dere was timin even..
i tink i did well enuf..
had a bath aft acc..
feels so nice n clean..
did mob test..
bla bla bla..
notin much..borin!!

*im piss off so leave me alone*

2008-04-16T14:57:00.003+08:00

i jus realise tht sleepin enuf is essential for gd health..
darn!!..
i have nt enuf of slp n im dying of pains everywhere!
i wan go hm yet im stuck in sch thus d blog post..
i wan sleep...screams!!
freakin shit...bloody..
school is tiring, kept goin home late..
shouldnt it be tht once im in yr 3, i shld go home earlier??
yet i keep goin hm later n later n later..
oh gawd, HELP!..
tmr is miBIG walk..
im nt interested cos i wan play netball...:(
im too tired to think nw..cant take it..thts it..
tatatatatatata...

2008-04-14T21:35:00.003+08:00

"Better In Time by Leona Lewis"

It's been the longest winter without you

I didn't know where to turn to

See somehow I can't forget you

After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock

Who's there no one

Thinking that I deserve it

Now I realise that I really didn't know

If you didn't notice you mean everything

Quickly I'm learning to love again

All I know is I'm gon' be ok

[Chorus:]

Thought I couldn't live without you

It's gonna hurt when it heals too

It'll all get better in time

And even though I really love you

I'm gonna smile cause

I deserve to

It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV

Without something there to remaind me

Was it all that easy

To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh

Hurt my feelings but that's the path

I believe in

And I know that time will heal it

If you didn't notice boy you meant everything

Quickly I'm learning to love again

All I know is I'm gon' be ok

[Chorus:]

Thought I couldn't live without you

It's gonna hurt when it heals too

It'll all get better in time

And even though I really love you

I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to

It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me

It's time I let you go

So I can be free

And live my life how it should be

No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you

Yes I will

[Chorus: X2]

Thought I couldn't live without you

It's gonna hurt when it heals too

It'll all get better in time

And even though I really love you

I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to

It'll all get better in time

2008-04-04T14:46:00.004+08:00

allos!!..
hehe..me sorry haven update so long..
been lazy larhs..
aniwaes, been busy with sch stuffs n also frens..
u noe, i realise smtg..
frens are actualli irritating bunch of ppl who either irritate u OR they irritate with u.
i tend to be loud n outspoken nowadays. had enuf of keepin mum..
i cry alot too..cried alot cos i feel lost n confuse actualli..
i hate such feelings cos it makes me so down but i cant seem to help it.
u get my drift?? yes? no? dunno? den nvm larhz..
sigh...

i miss him actualli.
haha.stupid i noe but i jus do.
yestersday we talk..
he sound so cute n i practically died again..:)
but wth..he's attch to HER..EEEEWWWW..
oooo so urghhh..dun like..dun fancy..
deeep down hope it aint lasting..
evil of me i noe but wad to do..cant help it larhz..
its jus a natural feeling mah..

tmr suppose to go johor with nouru
yet aint happening last min..
sorry nouru.. :(

intend to study but hehe..easier said den done le..
im like a lazy shit..
once in a while den mug hard
but now no laaa...

im bored sey nw..sad sad..
dying..help? yeaps..

spent 2hrs wit aidil..
darn i love tis best fren of mine..
love spendin tyme wit him..
we LOL alot
i adore u alot..
sweet boi..
:)
meetin u makes me extremely elated..lol

i wanna msg u..wanna u to repli me..
wanna u to hug me n say everythings alright..
whisper sweet nothings to me..
let me smell u n hold u close..
make u hold me so tight till i cant breathe..
so near, so close...
yet its so far..u're so far..
i wan u but u aint mine no more..
mayb someday we'll get back together n laugh our yester years off
however till tht day, u'll always be a part of me..u noe u will..

2008-03-23T12:16:00.008+08:00

lets review d week aites...

thurs- had CIP at ECP. had to clean d beach from carpark g all d way to C.

darn its far larhs...had feet cramps aft tht..ish..
well at least we all r up for pic takings,hehe...

haha..thts about it larz..
aniwaes, am unhappi wit tht someone. (u did ntg, took credit for ppl hardwork, such a freakin biatch...)

aft tht, had lunch at macd..

went to the cathay to catch Vantage Pointi love d show, d plot was great, had a few unexpected scenes

didnt like d rewindings though..urghh..other thn tht d show is nice..yeps..

after movie, i went to cut hair at far east..

darn, hair shorter thn expected but oh wells...me can s

till live wit it..haha..

friday- went johor wit family..

first tyme naik public transport..

went city square..

next tyme must ask frens along..

ahaahaaa...

went hm at close to midnight..SHAGGED..

sat- met up wit stitch n adee...

haha..darn..went ps, stuck in ps cos of rain..

in d end, head over to vivo for no reason..

haha..mad ppl we are..

darn, i wan his phone!!

never took so many escalators in a day sia! :)

at nite, sent dad to airport..

headed hm..slept in car..zzZzzz

2008-03-14T14:12:00.003+08:00

orite! callin all guys n girls, regardless of u're a dancer or not, u HAVE to watch this show!! it rawks ok. its a must must. i love it to bits n pieces. d dance moves were darn sleeq n smooth. it truly gets u in d groove. very entertaining. worth 98mins of yr time. i wan watch it again!! i do. damn.. love it man..woohoooo.. yeah..

spent half d nite with aidil.. had a nice talk on things in life. somewhow i love yr hugs. smell good n feel good.. love yr smiles, everything abt u..oh wow..i wish we could meet up more often; makes me happi... hehe...darn, i miss u oreadi...

2008-03-12T12:26:00.002+08:00

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I never make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head up high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms,
I know that it's forever.
I just gotta let you know,
I never wanna let you go.
When you look me in the eyes.
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

2008-03-12T12:00:00.003+08:00

its been a month plus since i last updated

this blog has become very stagnant..

i dun intend for it to be this way..

its jus tht so many things happen...

aniwaes, sch outz for a week..

i still am indecisive abt wad to do...

so many options yet none tht truly interest me...

another issue, i think he regrets leavin, but wads done is done

we've gotta let go n move on though it hurts...

on monday, i wen to sch, met an old fren talk non stop..

the rest is not for ppl to noe..

haha!!...

had dinner wit nouru, he drove me nuts but its all good..

darn i miss him alreadi..

too bad we gotta wait till another 3 yrs to meet again..

hmmm...

yesterday was my job shadowin n im suppose to shadow this nurse, Salwa.

she 's realli small n sweet. we went all around SGH. it was so fun..

Guess wad D.O.A stands for in hoapital??

next d food at d cafeteria rawks n the boys ther are heaven!

hehe...

later i upload pics...

den this guy made eye contact wit me..

i smile back n we kept smiling..

finally he came over n ask

" are u singaporean?

"yes"

"oh ok"

den he left. i was like uhhh???

shit, he aint singaporean but i swore he look like a malay

haha...

after tht was jus exchange of smiles..

darn he's cute!!

haha...

left SGH, went boon lay, pick up Arid n sent him home to tamp..

at tamp, saw this sucker n gf.

he look at me with such eeee face till Arid ask y,

said i dunno n it ended there...

after all tht, wen home. soooo shag!!

today, while i was thinking, Aidil msg..

we talk n yep..im glad i have such nice frens..

they rawk yr world..

i love them to bits n pieces..

to all the frens i've made throughout this 19 years,

u've all hab made a difference in my life be it lil or big..

sorry i dun keep in contact wit all but do noe tht i tresure u

till den, take care all